“Don’t make yourself so available”, he said.

I used to be so available in my relationships, there was no polarity.

In my past relationships…

I couldn’t sit still or feel any sense of safety in my body if we had an unresolved argument.

I’d drop my plans at the drop of a dime to be with my man.

Ask why we hadn’t been intimate for a while.

Run out of the house crying waiting for him to follow - which of course he never did.

Be there for him any day any time even when it wasn’t reciprocated

I see you teenager to 25 year old self, and I love you so much.

I went from complete anxious attachment to meeting Jack and standing in my worth with a man for the VERY FIRST TIME.

All because I put my SELF first.

I looked in the mirror and got really f*cking honest with myself about how I wasn’t seeing my own value.

I explored what was there for me to see, heal and receive.

I loved myself fiercely while I practiced upgrading my standards and my boundaries.

I deeply saw myself.

I created a vision for what I desired and I aligned myself to that vision.

Even with the twists and turns I kept elevating my choices and tuning into the highest frequency of love.

I took myself through my own method and I am my best testimony.

The love I receive today from my man is otherworldly.

And the love I have for him is beyond.