Anxiously Attached To My Vision
If you hold onto a vision too tight, it starts to lose life.
Trust and spaciousness, are fundamental to being securely attached to your vision -
…and, full honesty? I’ve been anxiously attached to mine.
The vision I have for our family is grand, it’s beautiful (and when the time is right, I’ll be sharing it more publicly).
As my husband has lovingly pointed out for me on a few occasions, I want it too bad.
It’s what makes me so f*****g powerful - and so vulnerable to disappointment, too.
When I want something, I can summon the powers of the Universe to support me. I have no shame in that. It’s one of my ultimate superpowers.
….but
There are times when I feel my ego come into play. Holding on so tight, the vision starts to feel more like my prison.
I get triggered when it seems like something may threaten it.
I “check” on it often.
My words are drenched in fear.
I look for all possible signs of threat that my vision just won’t be.
And when I do this, I feel myself spiral into a familiar pattern of being anxiously attached.
No more so with my partner; it has shape shifted in some ways.
That’s the thing about attachment styles; they aren’t exclusive to our relationships.
They can creep up in the most unsuspecting places, as I’ve recently discovered for myself.
So I’m curious, what are you holding onto just a little too tight?
A person?
A vision?
A point of view?
And what might live in the open spaces, if you allow it?
With love,
Diana